I dont post much on FB about my own life, but I want to make this official and share a massive turning point in my life: IM MOVING TO PORTLAND OREGON IN 60 DAYS! This was a massive decision in the making that is about so much more than where I will live. For me, this is about me... my quality of life... and waking up to realize that the life Ive created for myself so far DOES NOT MAKE ME HAPPY. Similar to Jason Moffatts illuminating recent post about visiting San Diego and the immense competition, attention to looking perfect without any sense of *feeling* whole and happy... its been steadily dawning on me that living in Los Angeles has created a life where I work 14 hours a day, weekends included, to make just enough to eek by in an 800 sqft 1 bedroom apartment that, when my lease is up in December, will become unaffordable to me. Does that sound like the definition of success... happiness... Im living the good life? No, it doesnt. Theres a LOT to love about LA. I will always love this city. But being here as a single professional it is impossible to afford the kind of lifestyle I have come to enjoy. It forces me to work too hard, which rips me from any possibility of feeling feminine. I have to hustle all day every day and am a 100% pleasure deficit because theres no time to do the things that fullfill and restore me. With all the city has to offer, all I can do here is work at my desk to afford the apartment I never leave. Dating in LA is fun, but you also have to wonder why there are so many singles here. If it were really a good market for *singles looking for love* some or many of them would actually be FINDING love and the amount of singles would go down. But it doesnt. The energy here is just not conducive. I even fall into the trap. I meet cool guys and I just lose interest far too easily. Theres a wall, an assumption that at some level theyre going to be off to the next one, and me too, and theres really never an effort at real connection. Weve all been so torn to shreds by others that we dont even trust each other to be open. The men I meet are guarded and I realize so am I! Yet as soon as I switched my online dating profiles to Portland, I got an avalanche of messages and winks and likes from interesting, good looking men who are warm and open and genuine. Oddly so far theyre all also LA transplants! I thought it would slay my dating life to move to Portland, which Id considered ever since my family moved there two years ago. But the truth is, it might be the answer to all my prayers. And most importantly, this move for me is about MAKING A STAND FOR THE LIFE OF MY DREAMS. I realize its not about the fancy cars, the rich lifestyle, the world travel (though I love all that and will keep all that). While those things are great, true abiding deep happiness is about the steady, quiet fulfilling moments... being held by nature and her vast forests and mountains... having space to stretch myself physically and energetically... and creating a life where my expenses are streamlined, my rent is low, and I can finally take that deep breath from consulting for clients to begin my own projects and teach my own material. I am stepping forward to be fully CREATIVE for myself and my own dreams and visions and gifts. No longer will I need to give that creative fire to everyone else just to survive. I will finally have the foundation to build my company with Angela Hartman and give our passion and purpose to the world. A special thanks to my brother, Matthew Mintun who planted the seed that stuck, took root, and voraciously transformed my life in a heart beat... and a special shout out to how much Im looking forward to being a real, steady and consistent part of my lovely family again: Asha Alexandra Mintun, Tita Mintun, Larry Mintun, Amelia Mintun, Matthew and Nana. I have opened completely to life. I am coming HOME.
Posted on: Wed, 17 Sep 2014 19:18:49 +0000
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