I spent my birthday talking with people from around the world about their experiences as parents and hearing stories about their relationships and this was an amazing gift. Thank you all for everything you shared. I now realize that we are all going through really difficult challenges in our lives and in that sense, I dont want to complain about my situation because mine is not worse than yours and together I know things will ultimately be OK. As much as it is healing to discover the greater good, and to feel connected to you through our collective challenges, I must admit that I still feel mostly angry and outraged that I am losing my family. In the wake of every thing said, I am sobering up to the reality that my relationship is truly over. I am trying to swallow the pill that it will never be what I intended, it will never posess all the beauty and love that I promised. All of my love, all of my time, all of my effort is wasted on someone who is too proud to accept my love and to guilty to include me in their lives. I will never forget this moment and the bitter anguish of watching what I cared most about in life wash away because someone else didnt have the respect, the foresight or the willingness to handle the situation properly or with the extreme care that it deserves. If you truly love someone, you dont do what happened to me. This was not a caring act or a loving act. I would never wish this on anyone and I will never be the same.
Posted on: Sat, 24 May 2014 07:51:28 +0000