I wanted to share my story This Is leith Pheonix Wilmott I lost him at 16 weeks thru my pregnancy I had all my scans which showed a happy pregnancy ,, How ever I was bleeding most of the time during The pregnancy .. At my 12 week scan it showed all was normal and fine and I went to tafe as normal each day as I wanted to be a hair dresser, one day when I was at tafe I was finally 16weeks now and I had really bad cramps I went to toliet and put a pad on as I was bleeding again after a hour that pad was completely full with clots (sorry for the TMI) I knew this wasnt normal along with this pain I went straight to emergency which was just across the road been in the heart of Hobart thank goodness and after a 20 min wait I was rushed straight in as blood just poured every where , they had doctors and every one around me they did a scan I was told my placenta had erupted, I asked what this meant they said it meant ur placenta is detaching it self, normally just means at due time we will induce u like three weeks earlier and ur placenta will be smaller then usual, I was all confused and scared and thought oh no not my baby! Time went on and I wasnt loud home I was loosing so much blood and pain came on worse for three days , they did scans two times a day his heart beat still there and strong, it became bout 7pm on 15 th of may and the pain was un bearable at this stage I was on the gynoncolgy ward been treated like crap from nurses because they ha to keep changing my bed non stop as no pads were holding the blood it became so bad that blood was leaking off the bed and my parents said she is loosing alot of blood the nurse said it was just a trickle , at this point it was now 10pm and pain was worse I was in and out of concousness non stop and morphine didnt help.. I had the bed changed like 15x when the nurse said we may as well just stop changing the sheets at this stage my legs were covered in blood and I was told the doctors would be there soon they never showed hours went by and I was cold in my blood and no nurse would help they couldnt be bothered!! It was 3 am and nurses sent my parents home said I was fine my mum said she Isnt fine and I not leaving to u change her sheets and get her warm so mid wives changed the sheets after hours finely and I was bit warmer still in the worst pain, my parents went home and then at 4.30am my pain stopped my leith grew his wings on 16th May exactly a year after on the same date my nan had passed the doctors finely came they did a internal and said sorry your baby has passed this stage i already knew as the pain stopped they got my baby handed him to me in a kidney dish then doctor snatched him out of my hands then took him away as I was crying so bad then started getting bits of the placenta out and I said it was to pain ful so then they said fine what ever you be having a curette at 8am i also needed a blood transfushion from the blood loss so much for just a trickle like the nurse said!! i was not only up set bout my baby but I was treated like crap i believe it was due to my age been so young ... once again my non thanks to the RHH... My parents came in and nurses changed shifts thank god I thought ... and finely a nice nurse came in , at this stage She asked would u like to see your baby i couldnt remember what he was like as he was snatched from me and i was tired i saw my baby and he was wrapped in a blue blanket still in a kidney dish and when I looked at him he didnt look completely formed and I was told thats what they look like at 16 weeks and because the placenta was detaching he wasnt getting the amount of growth he needed. I was in shock to see how little and alien like he was but he was so cold and I held his tiny hand and said Im sorry I wasnt strong enuf to carry you! I blamed my self for so long about leith... It was such a traumatic experience and upsetting I felt lost for so long and now I still cry from time to time and I hate seeing angel babies taken to soon I see all these parents loosing children and I feel so much for them I just wanted to say that I wasnt able to bury my son as I was only 16 weeks I was loud to take him home and he remains in a twinklet box now with his name engraved I know I was only 16 weeks but I couldnt get a naming certificate nothing so I could feel he was reckonised , I know many mothers out there who lost their babies at the same stage or less weeks even and even tho they named them their selves I guess having it in writing and framed would be lovely I dont class him as a miscarriage I class my self as giving birth to him a I was told the pain was labour pains! He grew in my belly and I believe that all babies under 20 weeks should have a naming certificate made for them at least I know I could make one but it isnt the same if you know what I mean!! I guess I just over reacting but I think all babies deserve to be reckonised but I guess they wont be only by the mothers who carried them along with family members and their partners I wanted to take a minute for every one who miscarriaged and ask them comment the name of your angel and the birth date along with how many weeks u were along with all mothers who have Lost a baby and reckonise our angels
Posted on: Fri, 24 Jan 2014 11:04:09 +0000
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