Im seriously thinking about selling everything I have and moving to an island like Jamaica or some place like Belize and living simply. Average job, no cable, no need for all this insurance and flat screens, purses...nothing. Just a small 3 room place with a balcony, a moped and simple jeans and sandals. Im tired of working and working with no real love for what I do. Any dream that I had for myself growing up was never fulfilled, no mater how hard I worked or how many sacrifices Ive made. Not even in prayer....so it was not Gods plan. Isnt that what people say when things dont work out....It was not Gods plan....? Now I know its not Gods plan for me to be unhappy...right... So riddle me this....why is it when I seek my bliss and it doesnt work out is it because its my plan? People say I should be content - to count my blessings...I do...everyday.. But why is it wrong for me to want more out of life? Why is it wrong for me to be upset when hard work results in nothing but debt, loneliness and a house full of useless stuff to keep your mind occupied. Dont misunderstand me, I am blessed....I have a mortgage free home, transportation, a job and an AWESOME Son...Who will be making his own life Praise God.... So what now? Growing up in Frankfort, Kentucky has given me a simple life, great lifelong friends, but seriously, It is time for a different life. I think Ive done enough for others. As a matter of fact I spend every minute of everyday doing for others..in my job, in my spare time, in prayer, in time and money, in counsel. I spend everyday trying to show people they are worth far more than they are treated, that they need to see the world, that they should work hard and give to others.... And I do this with a smile and laughter even through mountains of hurt and stress. Im tired.... truly tired.....sometimes I want to wake up on streets paved with gold, talking to the ancestors, but its not that time in Gods plan...yet. Im sharing this vulnerability, because many feel this way and are afraid to share.... I can say it for you because I no longer care what people think of me....I know who and whos I am and God....He knows my heart and soul...
Posted on: Sun, 16 Nov 2014 00:40:47 +0000
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