Let me get this straight right off the bat...I am not looking for attention or a pity party. I am simply letting everyone know what happened the other day to hopefully inspire you. We are all struggling with each moment and there is and will be good things that are worth being here for. The other day I attempted suicide..obviously failed, but I learned that suicide is Not the answer. No I am not going to go into details but I will tell you this much, you MUST NEVER EVER EVER GIVE UP because there is too much god damn beauty in this world and there are so many things that we have yet to experience. Our lives (This pertains to all humans and animals alike) can be taken away from us in a blink of an eye. Why would we want to miss the good moments that come our way when our lives are filled with such chaos etc? So no matter what please do not give up on yourself..YOU are stronger than anything that is thrown at you, you can and will get through it. This too shall pass is something to live by. I want to end this with something that I lost sight of the other day...There are so many people in this world that love you and that you have a positive effect on even if you arent aware of it. Those people are the ones worth living for even when you think you cant go on. I didnt see that, I only saw the negative and lost sight of all the people that would die a little bit inside and never be the same again if I had succeeded in my selfish little plan to kill myself. You all, or at least most of you know, I lost my ex boyfriend John Mellon IV to Lyme Disease. He was the one who went missing on 6/24/14 and his remains were found less than 1000 ft from my house on 10/26/14. So yes I thought I had nothing to live for because the pain outweighed the positive things that surround me each and every day. It hurts like hell to not know where someone is for 4 months then to get that phone call that youve been dreading since day 1. Im getting off subject but this was important for those of you who didnt know. Anyway a friend called 911 the day of my selfishness and McCarthy (The officer of Johns case and who is now considered a friend and hero to me) came to my house on Tuesday after he was given the report. He came to sit down and talk to me and make sure that I knew life is worth living for. He also brought to my attention that if I had succeeded he would have been crushed plus he would have had to tell my entire family including Johns family of the news. That is what really opened my eyes and I made him a promise that if anything like this comes up again I will call him directly. I also made a promise to my family and some friends that I will never try this selfish act again and if I have those thoughts I now know I have a support group. McCarthy quoted it best, and I want you all to write this down somewhere, put it in your heart and NEVER forget it. Neither success or failure are final destinations. I love you all and never lose sight of what is important in your life.
Posted on: Thu, 01 Jan 2015 22:04:41 +0000
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