[You sly dog! You got me monologuing!] I had that wretched cough syrup drugged out feeling playing tug of war with caffiene and vitamins in my mind and body all day at work. I have never felt so disconnected from myself in all my life, and my nerves are now shot on top of this deep phlegmy lung cough I cant seem to clear out. After a little nap, I feel so much better, but its early bedtime for me for sure tonight. All of this really 1) makes me appreciate my health when I normally have it, and 2) freaks me out that every day that passes now, my body can only break down more and more and lose resiliency, and I am becoming very apprehensive of advancing age with each new episode where my body fails to perform as it has in the past. In fact, at this point, I cant really even build up new muscle tone without some really hard core strength training. All I can do is keep the natural decay of muscle tone at bay with some maintanance strength training... which I dont know that I even have time for. I have prayed deeply on my own behalf like I did today, only occasionaly in the past. But lately, I have been feeling my spirit wanting to drift away from my body more and more, and I am not nearly ready to go. I have way too many loose ends to tie up still, and more importantly, I need to be there for my kids and future grandkids. That is a NEED. And I also desperately feel the need to do everything I can to enlarge, build up, and strengthen the Kingdom on this side of the veil, as much as I possibly can, before I eventually get the priviledge of working on the other side with my dear wonderful dad; those who have labored to build the Church; and the Lord, who guides and watches over His marvelous work and wonder. I believe there is a heavenly council that is mindful of all of us and that watches over and guides this work from the other side as it rolls forth. The Savior, the Prophet Joseph Smith; all of his succesors in the Presidency; everyone, in fact, to whom the keys and authority to perform this work have been given, has a role in guiding the work on both sides of the veil, as well as millions of other valient pioneers of these latter days who have gone before us. They are all organized on the other side of the veil, with only one single purpose -- to assist all of us in doing the work on this side. We have unseen hands pulling invisible strings and levers for us all the time. We dont need to dwell on this blessing. We just need to follow our Savior and His duly appointed and authorized servants. They that are with us are truly, vastly greater in both numbers and strength, than those that are against us. That is why, even when things get dark and stormy for us spiritually, we can press forward without fear. We can all lift where we stand. And we can know, through the assuring power of the Holy Ghost, that when the dust settles and the clouds all part, everything will work out much better than we can possibly even imagine. So lets all get ready for the final push that is coming. Lets be ready for whats coming. We have challenging times ahead of us. We can choose to sit it out on the sidelines of life, or we can lean in to the stiff winds of opposition and opportunity. Wow, I am feeling MUCH better, now. Thanks, facebook. :)
Posted on: Wed, 06 Aug 2014 01:42:55 +0000
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