* personal story and about my relationship * so as most of you know I struggle with self harm and I have for years. Ive been doing really well lately though, my scars have faded a lot & Ive only relapsed a few times. Basically I had a total of 10 blades and over the first 3 months of my relationship with max I got rid of them all. I gave him all of the blades to get rid of for me. I had a break down and ended up buying more, but today I got rid of the last one again. I gave him it to get rid of because I know it truly hurts him when I hurt myself. and I dont want to hurt him in anyway. so I got rid of my last blade today. I was breaking down the other day and saying how Im tired of trying (which is kind of true but I still try because I know I can do it) but I was just really upset and done with everything and I wanted to share what he said to me I know you try so hard and have persevered over so much and Im really proud of you. You dont deserve so much of what happens and its not in your control so I promise you that you will always have me and Ill protect and defend you forever. I promise for the rest of my life Im gonna take care of you and thats a promise Ill never break. Ill never ever ever. I intend to keep that promise until my corpse rots 6 feet under. Ill always be here to protect you from the bullshit of the world. I would throw away any dream of mine to make sure you are fine and safe. You mean the world to me Id kill and die for you. Your the love of my life I could not live without you. Ill never be miserable with you Ill always feel loved and happy with you, but you deserve the world and more and that is what I want to give to you by the end if my life. Weather it sounds far fetched or not that is my promise Im gonna keep it I promise ❤️ he made me feel a lot better and I wanted to share that its an amazing feeling to know you arent alone and have someone you can truly rely on. it helps a lot and I know he loves me. thats kind of all I wanted to share *IM STILL COMMENT BLOCKED SO I CANT REPLY TO COMMENTS BUT I WILL READ THEM ALL*
Posted on: Mon, 01 Dec 2014 23:48:31 +0000
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