why do i always gotta over react? i tell ya its all this dam stress ive had this year and last :/ and plus zane dont feel well tonight :( coughing and soar throat im pretty sure in two weeks he should be feeling better least i hope its his 4th birthday on the 27th so fingers are crossed lol,i know as a single father i have my own expectations to live up to and to my family and to his mother to show em all im a great father and that i would do anything for him sometimes it freakin feels like im walking on a tightrope as in i feel like im not doing a good enough job or im letting people down i dont know thats just how i feel i know his mother and i dont see eye to eye on things and we like to throw dirt on each other when it comes to our parenting and yall have seen me get upset on here about her but we all make mistakes and it wouldent be right if i didnt forgive her cuz i would want to be forgiven to right? i mean there is a lot of things ive done in the past i would love to be forgive for now have i been? i dont know i can only hope but ive always been taught by my mother it takes the better person to let something be and leave it alone and dont start drama or let hate consume me to wear i say hurtful things but we all know at times when we care so much and when were pushed or talked about or put down we stand up for our selves and sometimes say things we dont mean least i know after i calm down i feel bad for the mean or hurtful things i say even if i was in the right it dont matter cuz it takes a good man/women to know when enough is enough to be able to say sorry,pride can be a evil thing enough to consume a person pride brings relationships down even marriages and even tares apart good friends i try to never let my pride or ego get in the way of my true feelings for a person sometimes yes i gotta vent a lil but ill get over it and forgive soon as i can and also anyone that has love for the lord should know if you cant forgive a person then how can the lord forgive you? its that simple lifes to short to carry hate and bitterness around gotta let that go yes this year and last ive had some negative posts about the boys mom but half of em are gone and forgotten about and like i said we all say and do dumb shit its gonna happen now like the other day when she called me fat and i was so upset well i got over it cuz in my heart i know im big but i also know that she was upset to and just bcuz im big dont mean i cant love anyone any less and im comfortable with my weight but yes its good to be in shape to lose a few pounds not to impress anyone but to do it for myself my health to be here longer for my son he needs me here,and i would also like to mention jus bcuz i sound like mr positive dont mean everything is goin great in my life right now cuz there not things are a lil hectic but i will hope and pray for the best thats all i can do...
Posted on: Tue, 13 Aug 2013 08:16:10 +0000
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