A morning of strength Nine months back it was hard for me to even bear her talking to a stranger. I realised that i had got too possesive about her. This was not me i often wondered. Even when she told me that she wont marry me because her Dad didnt want her to do so, i accepted her decision because she was a daughter first but still it was always tough for me to accept her talking to her official would be husband. She always said that the marriage is just a formality for her, i guess to put me at comfort because we knew nothing was going to get us together for life now. Nine long months. Everyday waking up thinking how to forget her, how to move on in life and failing to do the same time and again. Though she always said that she belongs to me always even if she marries someone else, it is hard for for a person to see the soulmate getting married to someone else and have his kids some stage in life. The days of a strange togetherness, we were together but it was never going to be official. A guilt began to rise up that i was not letting her accept her new life properly. If i stay in her life, she would never be loyal to the relation that was forced on to her, which she could never deny being a daughter. All i needed was a morning of strength. A day when probably i would wake up and ask for a break up and tell her to move on with the will of God and accept her new life. A day when i would free her of my love that was building with every single second. How can i be in love with someone who is not meant to be mine ! I kept gathering strength, yes every single night did i spend in tears crying over losing my everything for life. Yes, i befriended loneliness after the official declaration that i have to lose my love. Yes, i was now no more the person i ever used to be. Lifes cruelty had changed me. And see even after so much how i messed up things. I couldnt gather guts to ask for a break up even when i knew that it was for her betterment. That Morning of strength, All i could utter was I have to move on. I love you. Take care of my love, Forever :) ~ Avineet
Posted on: Tue, 23 Sep 2014 03:10:55 +0000
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