Broken Everything My home has never been what Ive wanted to walk into Because I knew every time I left, my eye would be blue Soul broken Heart closed supposed to be open Almost last breaths son close to me choking On my knees not to pray But begging for my life everyday Spousal abuse Something cowards would do My home has never been what Ive wanted to walk into Because I knew every time I left I would run into you At my grandmothers house My uncle You touch me Tell me you want me Im 12 in a room full of hell I never tell I dont run Im afraid So everyday after school with my uncle in his bed is where I laid Wishing I could trade someone for me Is there something wrong? Theres blood under me On white sheets my stains Rain hits windowpane Broken Not insane I maintain sanity I cant tell Theyll say Im a lie No understanding me My home has never been what Ive wanted to walk into Because I knew there would be nothing to eat After school lunch at 10 So I go to beg at my friends house Or take from strangers They mustve saw struggle on my face and anger This is 12th grade year and I must pay class dues but we aint got it Take senior portraits but I never show my mother the forms Broken I want to do all the things my friends can afford I cry so much Im 4 months from graduation but havent paid for my gown Might not make it If I dont pay for all these things I want to eat with my family no food So on Saturdays I go around the corner to St. Judes and they give me things for free Im tired of handouts I no longer want to be me My home has never been what Ive wanted to walk into Because I knew I would have to hear her mouth About My baby Im about to abort Im 17 and I just dont need this right now Life It just cant be this right now My mother said the baby cant live with us I have to go today and forbid his trust My baby father said he wants me to keep it And I told him I would Broken teen Misunderstood My home has never been what Ive wanted to walk into Because I knew every night I would be sleeping with you my wife Thinking of him and our nights alone Times Im supposed to be home I tell you Im at work doing overtime The entire time Im loving this man Broken Because instead of yours Id rather hold his hand Take care of him and leave you I wish I could express this feeling with never having to deceive you My home has never been what Ive wanted to walk into Because I knew every time I would get high with this guy I met at church one day Instead of us kneeling to pray We shoot up And take shots Nod out and lay cold in the floor Until morning and we cant handle anymore Broken The needle spoke for me Walking around town feeling no hope in me My home has never been what Ive wanted to walk into Because I knew every time I would run into you My medicine cabinet AIDS yes I have it And I dont want to be on meds for the rest of my life But I must take these pills and go for my check ups I see the sickness in my face On the surface of my skin Broken From the time of my diagnosis And that was when I was 21 and Im now 32 They say Ive got 5 more years of living to do My home has never been what Ive wanted to walk into Because I knew I would be alone after you passed away The love of my life I stare at your pictures on the wall everyday Before and after work This hurts Broken Never to be the same My home is what Ive always wanted to walk into Because I knew there would be a pen and paper there waiting for me So I could write about the lives of you
Posted on: Wed, 07 Jan 2015 03:58:26 +0000
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