Burn by Ellie Goulding https://youtube/watch?v=CGyEd0aKWZE ******************************* In light of some recent family events my morning meditation and thoughts turned to addictions in life. I was thinking about all the addictions Ive had in my own life. Some much more obvious than others. Although the urges come in varying degrees the feeling behind the urge is the same. Lack. Once I recognized the theme of lack I question...what am I truly feeling LACK of? Since the addictions can be anything and can change I dont think the things I become addicted to are truly what I want. So what is it? Physical lack? Emotional lack? Spiritual lack? Yes. :) Im lacking growth in all those areas. Also, I get tired of complacency. Often. I want to grow, learn, evolve but Im afraid. VERY afraid because Ive gone through the process of growing, learning and evolving...its painful and scarey. But its always worth it in the end....so why fear it? I believe my spirit and body are two separate entities and work in contradiction to each other in the beginning of change and growth. My body fears growth because it recalls the pain from stretching and expanding while my spirit yearns for it. My body kicks fear into high gear to keep my body dominate while keeping my spirit muffled. As I think back to the times of addiction I notice when Im in the thick of indulging in addictions I hear less truth, I have less peace, I have less clarity. I dont feel my spirit during that time. Addiction is my bodys fight or flight response. So I ask myself, What now? Can I really beat the instinctive nature of my body? Suddenly the term Refiners Fire comes to mind. I imagine myself with arms stretched out right and left at a slight downward angle, chin lifted up, eyes gazing up while white light streams from the crown of my head out through the tips of my toes and tips of my fingers....white light penetrating every dark corner of my body and spirit.....feeling the burn of the refiners fire but welcoming it and accepting it. I see myself as spirit accepting the burning and changing instead of fighting it. Allowing it to do its job without resistance. That is clearly my spirit saying to me......YOU CAN DO IT! And I know I can endure. So today as I fought my battles of addiction I stopped when I felt the inevitable urge to indulge, I closed my eyes and saw myself LOVING the fire. Cuz [I] got the fire, fire, fire And [Im] gonna let it burn, burn, burn.
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 03:36:31 +0000
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