DONT take this post & think Im whining or looking for ANYTHING. I just need to vent. Im severely depressed & I really JUST need to get it out. 10 years ago this past September we left California. I left an awesome job that I loved. I was respected & I respected my boss & his boss. We were like a family. Left that all behind to move to Kansas to be with family. We apparently were dreaming of family wanting is here whod want to be with us, whod call or come over just to visit. Not to get something from us. The first year was nice, then it began going downhill. Our granddaughter no longer wanted to come visit us. Her mother wouldnt even visit when she was home all day like her dad was. It got to be that the only time, or at least most of the time we were contacted was when something was wanted from us. Something physical, not just a kind word or advice. We became outlaws with the only people we knew here, the people we moved out here to be with. Weve bought gifts for holidays & birthdays but they sit here collecting dust because family is too busy to stop by or for us to stop by. Right now were struggling the most weve EVER struggled before. Scott can not work, he is disabled. He can barely sit or stand for more than a few minutes at a time due to chronic pain. He doesnt take prescription meds for his pain either. He takes Advil or a store brand otc pain med that doesnt help his pain much. Things trashy REALLY got bad for us when on September 27th he was in an auto accident & totalled our ONLY car. 4 days later I was suspended from my job. 22 days later they told me I was fired. I KNEW I couldnt get unemployment because I had previously been overpaid while on Extended Benefits & even tho I baked p called several times asking what amount i was to be paid, they looked at it as if I INTENTIONALLY accepted the extra $ without notifying them & chose to ban me for 5 years. That means I cant collect unemployment benefits for 5 years. On November 16th I went to donate plasma. I would have received $90 that day. Instead, I fell inside the building & shattered my left wrist & broke both bones in my lower arm. I immediately contacted an attorney because I KNEW I did nothing wrong to cause my fall. Even my friend who was with me said it wasnt my fault. I had surgery 5 days after I fell. That left me unable to work. I STILL looked for work because I knew I needed to work. I tried to get a loan based upon my pending settlement, but my attorney shot that down. No ethical attorney in the state of Kansas will sign for a loan like that. We were trashy really depending on that loan. It would have gotten is thru financially until I could work again. Since that wouldnt happen & I couldnt go back to plasma we were broke. We only had (and have) food stamps as income. That wont pay the bills unfortunately. I set up a GOFUNDME page & prayed daily that SOMEONE would see it who could donate enough to help. Whether it be 1 person or a few hundred people, I prayed for it. On December 8th we walked to the grocery store & bought $166 worth of groceries. When we got home, we were greeted with a 3 day notice from our landlord. We called him & begged for him to work with us. He refused. I resorted to panhandling. I stood outside near an entrance to the grocery store on the cold & occasionally wet weather for days. I cried & I prayed. I managed to raise about $300. Wed received a court notice regarding our past due rent. I was beginning to panic! Where would we go? How would we live? I received an email from my Mother in Law asking where she should send our Christmas gift cards! Id previously asked her for financial help & was denied. When the cards arrived, I thought wed use them to buy a tent to live in. But, where? Then I was asked via text one day if we were good for our rent. I STILL believed we were extremely short, so I tried replied.No. That family member called me after a few minutes & told me to check my GOFUNDME page. I did & saw that $1,400 in my account! Minus the fees, we had more than enough $ to pay our back rent. We went to court, had the money owed with us! Didnt speak to a judge or the landlord or his attorney. We just completed a questionnaire & turned it in. THEN we were asked if we were STILL in the house.When we said yes, we were then told a writ might still be served. We didnt know what that meant, so we asked but got no answer until the next day when the landlord came over. He told us that a process server was ready to come over & serve us the writ. Wed then have 45 minutes to get what we could & get out. Anything left would then belong to the landlord & the locks would be changed. Had we reentered the house wed be arrested for criminal trespass! He said he stopped that, but that we HAD to agree to pay the costs of going to court, but hed allow us to make it in payments with our rent starting in February. So, from February thru May our rent increases $100! Im STILL not working, but still looking. Also looking for a cheaper place to live until i get my settlement. Then were leaving Kansas! Were not wanted here by who we thought was family. Looking for a job is VERY hard when you have no car & need to rely on the crap bus system or friends just to get to am interview! My hours of availability are limited because I have to take a bus to/from a job and right now my Dr has forbid me from using my left wrist. Ive gone against him & endured EXTREME pain. Pain that kept me awake crying. Im STILL praying for Gods help. We need it DESPERATELY right now. Were still short on rent for January. Our cell phones are shut off, tv/internet is also shut off. Next will probably be the utilities. I plan on going back to panhandling in hopes of getting enough to pay January rent. Im also going to go to Workforce & the library in hopes of finding an employer thatll accept me. Ok, Im done ranting. Going to take some sleeping pills & go to sleep. MAYBE tomorrow our prayers will be answered or well be contacted by someone who cares & isnt going to lecture us.
Posted on: Thu, 25 Dec 2014 04:50:21 +0000
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