Does it matter that a place Ive been trying to get back to for over a decade now feels unreachable? A place where a teacher I respect & hoped to study with resides. A place where I already had a favorite restaurant. (I loved it because you had to take off your shoes & eat sitting on the floor & an old waiter already knew my name & he had the nicest feet Id ever met & I told him & he said I could touch them & when I did I knew he hasnt been touched in a very long time & I made sure to touch him even more. A place that had a COOP I knew Id work at because it wasnt sterile & smelled of decay & produce & wet wood & was full of cheerful worker-bees just like me. A place that was walkable, manageable, no commute required... had nature & worship at easy distances. That north of the place was one of the best places to sky-watch youd ever been. It matters but not how I thought it did. I trust the ways of the universe. It kept me from returning for a reason. One I may never know. It may feel like a loss now but perhaps it was protecting me from a far worse fate. I believe that. We are Angels for one another. I believe that too. Right now that place feels like a Void. Empty. Not Real. Learning to love & laugh at myself in whole new ways I face that void, the unknowable future, this space...its where ALL the Magic happens. Its all I see & feel. I am wide-open. Terrified. Free. All actions create ripple-effects we cant anticipate. Be Kind. Be Grateful. Be Careful with one another. Im convinced everyone we meet is our savior, not tormentor.
Posted on: Sat, 09 Nov 2013 01:08:42 +0000
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