First off, thank you all for the very touching outpouring of love, encouragement, support and faith I have received from each and every one of you who has reached out to me! Youve called, emailed, private messaged, and liked to let me know you were out there cheering both me, and my precious grandson Cole on to success. I am so overwhelmed and truly, TRULY humbled by it all. I know many were confused by the few words I shared this morning...when I can write a book-length movie review or drone on so about a recipe or my cat. Per usual, when something big happens in my life, it quiets me, (honest;). I have to process and feel it and just BE with it awhile. Today was BIG! Bigger than big! After 2 days of strange calm, a good nights sleep last night, and feeling very peaceful this morning, I was just ready. I knew to my core that we were going to be safe. So after all the prep, off we go..to climb to an altitude of 10,000 feet...in a tiny... noisy... old... little... plane. OK, Ive got this. At about 5,000 feet it hit me! F!!! (you know the word, Im not spelling it out)..Ive got to jump out of this plane! I wont be just skydiving..that word sounds cool and sort of controlled. Matt, my new best, bald-headed friend, asks me how Im doing. Nervous, I barely whisper...need to meditate a minute. He gave me 20 seconds. Then he told me I was going to be great...he could tell by my demeanor and the questions I asked when we first met. Then he asked me why I was jumping...what brought me to this place in time. Oh yeah, hes that good. I told him Id wanted to do it since I was 15. I thought about Mom, and all the things she never got to see or do. I thought about Cole and knew if I backed out, it would be harder for him to go. I knew if I didnt follow through for ME, Id never try again. Then I repeated the quote I learned just a few days ago, If you can gather 20 seconds of insane courage, you can create a memory that will last a lifetime! So Matt buckled me up tight against him and tugged on my harness, and said, Do you feel how tight this is? Ive got you. Youre safe. I know what Im doing. I put my goggles on, told him I had to close my eyes when we jumped, which was ok with him, he opened the door, we shifted to the right and it was just as he said it would be...a quick rock forward, back and forward and we were out! Twenty seconds of insane courage, you bet your ass, because the heart-stopping fear just before that could kill you! ;)) We were free falling at 120 miles an hour, and yes, I had my eyes wide open! Then he pulled the chute and said, Were safe..weve got a good chute:)), look up! And there it was, so pretty! I relaxed my body, watched my beautiful and brave boy twisting, diving and spinning through the sky, while I drifted and floated down to the grassy strip and landing pretty darn softly on my butt. Id do it again for sure. But if I do or I dont, I did. 20 seconds. A lifetime. I own it and I share it with Cole. Neither of us will ever be quite the same. Thanks for letting me share this magical day. ♥
Posted on: Mon, 25 Aug 2014 02:00:49 +0000
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