Forgiveness. After I posted to FB about Let Go…Let God… I was reminded of yet another situation in my life. I thought…really.. Why are these memories coming now so often? Most people who really Know me (not many…Btw) understand that I have had a lot of loss in My life. Not extreme…but enough. But I was reminded of another loss that affected me very deeply. This was My friend ‘Gin’..some of you know her as Virginia. Her loss was a sudden one. This one took my flesh by surprise…but again not my spirit. One early Sunday morning We had received a call from her husband that she was gone. Overnight…just gone. I am now older than she was then. Far too young I thought. But even though I had Experienced another dream that (thinking back on it) warned me of what was to come, it Was a little more overwhelming. I had just spoken to her the night before…not even 12 hours before she left. It was surreal. What I eventually had to come to terms with and what God began to help me to see through this situation is that even though I was hurt, sad, and confused…none of those things was wrong. But the one thing that was wrong was the fact that I had unforgiveness in my heart. What? No…not for Gin…but with God. Yes….I was mad at God! How could He allow her to be taken at that time? He knew exactly the obstacles I was facing and how she was my strength. How could He take the one person that I felt knew more about me than anyone? Yes…I was…angry, upset, offended, and downright mad! When God began to show me myself…He assured me that it was OK that I was feeling those emotions. You see, God placed emotions in us to help move us…grow us…and motivate us. What God wanted most from me is for me to be honest with HIM…and ultimately…MYSELF! You see God knows our thoughts afar off, but until we can speak the truth to ourselves and ultimately to HIM, there is nothing He can do to help us. When He showed me my true self…and I acknowledged my feelings, then He was able to restore back to me all that I felt had been taken away. When I repented for my doubting Him and His sovereignty…it was then that I was able to see past my present hurt and pain. And when I confessed…repented…and turned it to Him…he healed me. Do I still miss my friend??? YES!! But I have the awesome comfort in knowing that He which has begun a good work. In me will complete it until the very end. I may not always UNDERSTAND His will…but I trust Him. And that…brings me comfort and peace. I thank Him for forgiving me. Are you angry with God today? Confess that thing to Him...and watch God work!
Posted on: Thu, 29 Aug 2013 13:59:54 +0000
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