I have a jumble of thoughts to share with you my friends….. Its a rare day that I dont look at my children and think about what theyve seen and done in their teeny lifetimes. What a ride for us all. Good times and bad. Even though September is saved for Childhood Cancer Awareness month parents like me celebrate the lives of their families on a daily basis... many times a day sometimes. Ive been reading all sorts of bumf that people in my position and pages I support have posted and its really made me sit back and think about some things. Everyone has a story to tell and some are good and some are bad. Some medications made things worse and even let kids slip away. Some saved lives and let kids live again. None of us know whats coming to us, we cant let that unknown negatives stop us from believing that it has to be positive can we? I know I can speak from an optimists standpoint because my son is in remission despite the odds. Hes still got a long insane road ahead of him and so much post treatment stuff to deal with. But just as we have so far, we’ll get through it one day at a time. It’s all you can do. I feel bad sometimes that I can celebrate the miracle that my son was too stubborn to die from Cancer and many of his little friends didnt survive. Its so unfair that not all precious people can be saved. This is a trip that could never have been easy in any way. We had such wonderful support from family, friends and even people we didnt know. Today (over 5 years later) we still have that love, friendship and support from those that make the difference to our everyday and I am so thankful for that. Ofcourse I’m mostly thankful that our Alex now leads a pretty normal life. He bothers his brothers. Whinges about homework and resists going to bed at night. Just like normal 9 year old boys do. He cuddles like it’s his favorite thing to do and it makes my day start with sunshine every day. I am one darn proud mama of my boys for getting through those hard days, and one very thankful wife to an amazing husband that holds my hand every day through thick and thin. I pinch myself daily and remind myself that I believe in miracles because Ive seen it with my own eyes and I live it every day.
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 02:14:32 +0000