I have to say that I dont know if I should maintain my ties with this group any longer. I dont post to the group. When I was part of the group in 1999, I was the biggest freak, probably the biggest turn-off one could see ever walking the streets. I tried to impress everyone or get everyones attention by acting like Jim Carrey. I just dont think Id be well accepted into the group any longer as I probably annoyed most of you to no end. And to top things off, one of the members of your group knows some evil things that Ive done, and I dont know if this person is willing to accept the true cause at this point. I did feel very judged for my actions and intentions by many people within this group, but God did call us to judge a persons actions only. To judge the intent of what someone is doing something for is not our place as followers of Christ. That belongs to Christ Himself and will be given out when we all are judged for what weve done. I am not going to name names because that is the past, despite the fact I still feel unwanted. A large account of this un-want also comes from my family who live there in Greenwood who saw me as nothing but a nuisance the entire time from when I moved out of Phoenix to Indy then to Pennsylvania. Yes, I needed psychological treatment BADLY, but does Christ reject the disabled? I wont make a big deal out of my seizures, though. But psychologically, I was messed up. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and a minor touch of borderline personality disorder. I now take about 15 to 18 pills a day. If I go without 10 of them for more than a week Ill have nasty seizures again. The other 5 or 8 help me stay calm, but most of my ability to stay calm has been through hard work, prayer, homelessness for a year and a half, and a lot of self accountability. You all would not recognize me if I walked into CCG right now. 15 years ago I needed your help, not condescension. I needed your prayer, love and friendship, and someone to say Mike well take the real you, just calm down and talk with us as we talk with you. By the way, Im not doing this to get attention. Im trying to make a point.
Posted on: Fri, 09 May 2014 00:37:20 +0000
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