I just erased this long drawn out account of being without HER. What it boils down to is, I miss her. Terribly. Not talking to her has been the greatest show of restraint Ive ever had. And I hate it. And Im constantly thinking of her and wondering if shes thinking of me. And Im sure the answer is no, becaise she has so much going on that its more like out of sight, out of mind...and not absence makes the heart grow fonder. So, in the end I think Ive screwed myself. I wanted her to miss me maybe a quarter as much as I do her, and instead, Ive shown her that her life isnt missing anything without me in it. But I didnt want her missing making a once in a lifetime memory, because she was talking to or texting me. I wanted her to have as much time with her family as possible. But I guess Ive learned something too. If it ever comes to a point where she leaves my life, Ill be okay. Lets hope I wont have to experience that for a very, very long time....
Posted on: Mon, 30 Jun 2014 03:27:36 +0000
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