Just in case your wondering..We stay sometimes cause we own a home and all our things are in the house with our spouse..Many fight for those things and the money..None of that mattered to me..I walk away from my home..MY HOME..MY House..All my things..Which later he gave me my personal stuff he took it to my mothers house..I took the clothes on my back and my cat the day I decided to leave him..I walked away from everything I had..I had too..Nothing was worth staying any longer then I had to..Fighting over things to me is crazy..But, I know one thing for sure..I divorced my husband after finding out the truth..I never gave him the chance to even try to make it up to me..Nothing..But, yet I stayed with my hero putting up with so much cheating..I could never understand why I did..I think back on this all now and I think I stayed because of being afraid to walk away from yet another failed relationship..I wanted to fix it and make it work..He was my hero..It had to..I now realize that they are to blame..I have done nothing wrong..I remember my husband saying I was the perfect wife..I was not perfect..But, I know I was a damn good one..Everyone said that..Including my hero..It failed with him..Not because of anything I did wrong..It was because he knew how he could treat me..He took a beaten down woman with a bruised soul and manipulated her and controlled her without her ever seeing that..He knew the right buttons to push..He knew what to use against me..He knew how to hurt me..He did exactly that..He had power..He had me right where he wanted me..A woman in love with him so much cause of his charming hero ways..At the same time a woman afraid to show the world he did not love her anymore then her abusive husband..Yes, my husband was hands on..This one was more verbal..But, it was all abuse..He never touched me cause he knew I learned to fight back..He knew I could take it..He knew he could not control me that way..I would have walked..He had to be more clever...So beat the low self esteem button on this one..Is exactly what he did..He knew I would not give up and let the failed relationship be my fault..I have decided this is a pattern abuse is..Sometimes we attract it without even knowing..It is like a magnet..Well I have taken one womans advice who blogs on this page..Her name is LINDA..She continues to post counseling..Many of you made a comment that why is that her answer for everything...Well I am going to take her up on that and try it..Also Candice your comments and your liking post and I read what you click on and your comments as well..There are many of you out her clicking like on post and the stories you leave many comments and let me know I am not alone..You have freely expressed your abusive relationships and private notes and letters to me as well..I learned so much from this page..I want to Thank each and everyone of you that have stepped forward to share a piece of you with us on this page..Or a like or a post that hits home..Letting me know what you feel and what you need..The stories I post that many of you ask me to do in silence..I Thank You all for your insight to my journey..
Posted on: Mon, 30 Sep 2013 05:15:50 +0000
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