Not very many like me, because I talk the truth too much and speak my mind! But deep down I want to be loved by everybody! I tried once and made stupid decisions and made a ass out of myself, that put me where I am now! But I had a bestfriend help save me Steven Aaron Mensing , Kim Blevins, Richard Blevins thank u for helping me see u got to stand for something or u will fall for anything! I have fell into that same slump again and Jeremy Oliver is the one this time tring to save me but im too old and ignorant to be let by somebody smarter than me, save me sorry bud! I have a lot going thru my puny brain at night drunk or sober its 900 MPH and I want to say so much but I cant type fast enough then I loose track of what I was thinking it pisses me off so bad cause I want to tell all of u what I think and feel but it comes out that im stupid cause all I can do is swear and call of u pussies, that just sounds like a uneducated person that nobody wants to listen to. I try my best tho, cause with every beat of my heart I want to show everybody on the planet that im the man u can count on, when u need me, that im stronger than any. Maybe I just hold on to the past to much, but just remember I hold on thru everything, im here right or wrong, maybe that’s why play softball so hard today I feel like I was to cocky in high school cause I have natural talent that I relied on in high school that I thought would carry me to the pros, boy was I wrong, so I show everything I got now every bit of heart is it, but its awesome when I hear kids tell my kids that ur dad is a legend in Evanston softball, that’s amazing cause I didn’t play sports for 12 years before I came back I sat In a truck and see this country and got paid for it, but to be respected by a 13 year old is badass cause I feel like I give people something to strive for ( hey u see that guy who worked and played his heart and ass off, don’t stop at all costs! GO BIG OR GO HOME!) all I ever wanted to be is Remembered, I step up any and every time to prove to U that im the best at everything I do, the problem is im a JACK OF ALL TRADES AND MASTER OF NONE! I just got a lost for words again started to think faster than I can type and lost train of thought, shit im so tried of being the bad guy but want to be the good guy either! I want to show my kids don’t screw around with ur life show what u got at all times with all ur heart, call me crazy, but don’t be lazy stay off the Ipods, Ipads, Iphones, show the future what old school is made of that ur daddy taught u and the world will be amazed by u that u know how to do shit without a computer, like hunting, driving, math, run a country, talk to a human without texting, kids we were born to lead not follow, that’s why we do what we do wear the shoes u were born to wear, stand up and talk and smile love everybody we all poop, fart, trip and fall don’t ever think ur special we are the same but different! Anyway I rant and rave on facebook but u got a little glimse at what happens in my brain, and I wanted to finally share it with all of u! but I guess we are who we are, I have taking a lot of things to far before and I smile and love everybody I love to have fun, love to have fun, I might not smile but im happy. Im so afraid to die, but im not afraid to die. I wonder so many things why was I so quit and shy when I was young never wanted to fight or talk to many people and picked my one friend and hung out with them (maybe cause I can only please one person at a time, maybe that’s why I have a hard time being married cant please friends and myself all at once, anyway get get back to what I was saying) and its been hard to write to my friends in prison and keep up with friends that I had now and work and add wife and kids, im just an asshole that I can only please one person at a time and my wife and kids take 90% of my time and I love them but I want to fit every friend I have in the 10% and work, so I ignore my family for my friends and work and softball and I get fights with the wife but I still do it why? IDK? Anyway im here to leave my mark on all of u and hope I did leave a mark on u that u will be talking about me or what I did when im dead and gone! Cause this is my legacy that I leave behind me, once again I left out so much I want to say but cant get it out fast enough, It’s the new name of my company My Legacy!
Posted on: Wed, 20 Nov 2013 06:56:48 +0000
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