Sleepless night inspired to write...something I have not done in over two years An abstract one dimensional interpretation of a smart person Personally, I find myself thinking way too much which ironically is not very smart. I think I am more open minded than most people. This is partly because I over analyze things, and often find that there is no perfect solution. This is frustrating to the max. I am constantly making calculations on possible outcomes. In a basic sense its kinda like the computer in war games playing tic tac toe with itself and ending up determining theres no solution, or in some ways, its like sitting there and trying to find the exact value of pi every time there is a choice. So the best short sided solution is sometimes not to play. Basically, I think like a never ending branching logic tree, and I do find myself uncomfortable around people because they introduce too many choices and variables and I dont have the time to consider all my choices and still respond in a timely manner. And not considering all my choices and variables and not responding in a timely manner is unwise and ludicrous to me. Thus my obsession with my computer. An extension of my brain like a hand in glove. Although for me it is a perfect fit. I especially find myself getting overloaded when I am in large crowds, or there is a lot of stuff going on. This is partly because of my introvert prefer to stay in the background wiring I suppose, but instead of just ignoring everything, I tend to start queuing stuff to think about get behind in a conversation or get ahead in a conversation depending on the other participant. This sometimes causes issues when I am dealing with people, so I deal with it by attempting to predict what they are going to do. This is a no brainer losing strategy. So if all else fails I just people watching for distractions. I dont believe in varying degrees of probability. Sometimes it leads to out of the box solutions, but it also leads to indecision. I think people need to make certain assumptions to function properly, but I understand them as only assumptions. I am thrown out of my comfort zone when people dont understand that their reality is only a group of assumptions based on perception. I have discovered when tweaking people with the attempt to jar them out of something they firmly believe with oh, say facts or scientific evidence or common sense that these people tend to become uncomfortable when their reality is turned on its head (and hostile). And perhaps this could be considered ill-advised. Although frustratingly it can appear to be mostly a senseless, professedly unobtainable goal but it is best to not question fate too much and follow where you are guided. Ironically kind of like a sheeple sent to wake up the sheeples. I believe in God, and yes I have actually considered the different possibilities and found other choices to be insufficient. I understand where evolutionists are coming from but they are missing a few key points and elements. Ultimately, people are going to believe what they choose, so I dont generally bother debating spirituality because the debates quickly turn to noise. And by noise I mean the most annoying sounds on Earth. Ive had 1 on 1s with a few atheists and did get them to admit maybe they are really not atheists per say. Confronting them with things that never occurred to them tends to throw them off guard. There are some things that science just can not explain and this is undeniable. But pushing beyond a certain line is probably futile but worth the effort in my opinion. I do get lonely. I usually dont have to observe someone more than a few seconds to understand a good deal about them, and because of that usually I lose interest rather quickly if there is no connection. Fortunately I have a plethora of multi-faceted awe inspiring connected friends. And I am eternally grateful to you every single day. I have misjudged. Basically someone I thought was dumb turned out just to be pretending to be dumb and actually schooled me good. Think The Game on a lesser scale. Ok, maybe they were just psycho. I am thinking the latter. My bad. I can become a simpleton when my heart does the thinking for my brain. Sometimes it is a nice vacation for the ole noggin but fortunately or unfortunately depending on how you look at it the brain eventually takes back over. Then the war ensues between brain and heart. Which one wins is a roll of the dice. And I am not a fan and dislike gambling - so foolhardy. Overall, I generally really dont care what people do as long as they thought it through. I generally dont care if people do things just because the feel like it, as long as they know that is why they did it. And take personal responsibility for it. Oddly enough, even the most logical decision is ultimately based on our desire to feel a certain way, so as much as feelings are illogical, they are the basis of human reality. I just cant respect people that insist something is true without being able to explain their ideology of why? Comes down to this basic point. I really dont care if people are smart or not, but I love people who are inquisitive and open minded about everything. People who think outside the box, are witty, put the cart before the horse and are a couple steps ahead. People who are honest and grounded with souls that are full of light. People whos hearts are pure gold. And I am so fortunate to know quite a few people like that and you know who you are. You be the smart one !
Posted on: Thu, 24 Jul 2014 13:26:49 +0000
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