Things going on these days make me realize that Ive been kind of escaping from the feeling used to push me to be anxious. Yes, the feeling started, again. Im a type of person whos born to be lack of sense of belonging. It was about 9 yrs ago that I released the eager to be attached to anything. I hadnt felt difficulties in controlling addictive habits since I was a child though. However, the natural longing for companion sometimes makes me feel sick. I didnt know that I was somewhat comforted by guaranteed life offered by company... This is like the spring in 2008... while I was preparing to go to London and waiting for the admission to the school. It felt like theres no entrance or exits to or from my world that would be connected to others. As if I got a fate of carving my way by myself forever without knowing whether there was an end. It was just hopeless but I needed to find something possibly could be called a hope. What a ridiculous. I wont make this time a repetition of that dark era. Even though I dont know how at the moment...
Posted on: Wed, 12 Mar 2014 16:26:26 +0000