This is a small seizure cluster. I dont remember having this seizure but I have an idea of how I was feeling at the time based on prior experiences. This is what it is like from my perspective. I feel like the ground has been yanked out from underneath me. Im dizzy and I can feel myself stretching down, down, down, down, longer and longer but at the same time being smushed and compressed. I feel tingly all over and can experience a range of emotions. I have been told this is dissociation. When I recognize that, I begin a grounding exercise which consists of looking around and counting either shapes or colors. My understanding is, its a busy task, but it gives my brain a distraction and redirects away from the panic attack to a new, more peaceful activity. Thats how I rationalize it working, anyway. Ive mentioned losing my memory a few times. That happens often with these seizures but the memories usually come back by the time the post ictal period ends. Ive lost larger chunks of time to the grand mals Ive had, I havent gotten all of those memories back but I know enough (and can ask my friends/family at any time) so I dont worry too much.
Posted on: Thu, 09 Oct 2014 22:26:09 +0000