This one is for my little lady my baby Heartlee River Peters I love you and God I thank You and Gary for the gift that was given to me I have been thru so many things and have felt severe pain in my heart since I can remember and its jus been one loss after another I am so broken and it seems to me like you jus dont want another man in my life you have taken every man i have ever been invovled with includin my little friend who was only ten Joshua W Dandridge so after you took the father of my child I made the decision to stay single and jus take care of my little Angel and that Jesus and my Dad would be all we would need I jus want my dad to get better I want to make him proud of me and I know I could do so by taking care of his grand baby thats pretty much all he has said to me since I have had her and now every time I go to see him I see so much hurt in his eyes he kept coming to see us right before he went into the hospital several times he would jus stop by and visit with us and he was so sad and I could only imagine how he must have felt holding his little grand girls in his lap jus thinking that maybe he would not be able to do so anymore but the last time he came over we rode off and he shared some things with me that I have kept to myself and I made him Promises that I must keep I will do exactly what he told me to do no matter what !!!!!! He also told me that he was not going to die and he is still holding on and he has suffered enough now and God I am begin you to please heal my Dad he is in need of a miracle and I believe in them I believe in you God and I Trust you I love you and all I want to do is live for you I want to do whatever your will for me to do is I really mean that and i jus wish that my dad could get better and that we could ALL Reunite as a Family and show one another love and respect and know that we are all equal in Gods eyes and he loves each and everyone of us jus the same so no one should be trying to get pleasures from our pain Thats our Dad thats Layin up suffering and theres nothing funny about this situation Nor is it fair to any of us My Dad mainly Dad is a good man his Dad was a great man and now little brother who is not really a farmer but yet he did what he did to help his Daddy by comin in to work for him Dad was at the house bragging on my brother to our grand parents I question dad as to weather he thought that Trent could and believed with all his heart that he could and Trent Benton promised him he would and thats all he is trying to do ya no most anybody can grade peanuts bag em up and sell them but it takes a special person to be able to do what my Dad done now my little brother is doin it and I could imagine how he must feel out there in them fields all my himself thats hard work and like I said it takes a special person to do what he does and he has been thru pure hell his heart is so broken he has been so strong for so long and all that hurt and pain has turn in to anger and resentment and i know how that feels so i am beggin you GOD in the name of Jesus to help my little brother this is not fair to him thats HIS DADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And my Dad loves my brother as well as my brother lovin him and would not want any of this foolishness to be going on so stop the madness its an assignment from the devil and he is out to destroy everything and everybody but I command Satan to get behind us all and I claim this in the mighty name of JESUS!!!!! And I thank ya for it God now this post began about my daughter and dad and now its all about my little brother help him Jesus Trenton Wade Benton I Love you bubba and I want to be there for you and am sorry that I havent been but as you well know that I have problems and i know now what it is that I have to do in order to stay clean and sober I gotta take care of myself and my little girl and thats what i have been doing its not that I did not care or want to be a part of I jus couldnt but I was at home and I have felt every drop of your pain and some i am still hurt in and I recon I will for the rest of my life but thank God I dont have to drink or drug to change the way i feel today I am OK and I promise you that from this forward I gonna stand up for whats ours DADDY!!!! Love everybody !!!! Later Opal Benton
Posted on: Fri, 23 May 2014 07:47:30 +0000
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