Thoughts while Venus spends the last few degrees in Cancer (at 27 degrees currently). As in a dream within a dream within a dream, there are layers to our waking realities. These layers don’t always appear to be necessary to maintain the surface reality. But when what is stirring beneath causes ruptures on the surface, there is crisis. Multiple threads of this exist, so on one thread, harmony exists - we did our inner work and got good outer results - but on another thread, something stirs and we ignore it, or something stirs and we don’t know what exactly to do with it. Sometimes things come up that form new threads, and we are confronted all at once with something more than we have built our filters and lives to be able to handle. Within our ego, I find that those layers of thought and perception are inherently artistic - they are abstract, sometimes full of powerful, inexplicable feelings, images, words. It is the craft of translating them, and maybe even more so the desire to make them real - that forms art. Emotions that are extreme in any direction challenge the ego structure and push its boundaries. Pain or pleasure. Fear or Love. I never quite believed that artists had to feel pain to make art, but I did indulge on emotional adventures of extremes just because it stoked my fires. But at some point, this kind of behavior had consequences I couldnt deal with anymore. So I adjusted. Now I feel that my life itself is what I am here to respond to, and my fantasy life or creative life are for my art and for deepening my understanding of reality, but it is not, itself, a crisis. I feel inclined to discover and interpret my emotions still though, because it is the transmutation of them, (from feeling into words) that leads me to satisfaction. Until that is done, I am discontent. But when I can express what is before inexpressible… it is ecstasy… it fertilizes the rest of my life, I am more able to enjoy things, and I feel that I did something purposeful. So for me, it is writing, but for others - it can be anything really. I listen a lot to a business podcast for entrepreneurs (called Unmistakable Creative) and am always noting how important it is to the speakers and the host that people’s businesses (manifestations, creations, etc.) are built on things that are authentically honest to who they are, and to discover how to accomplish that, an exploration of the emotional reality is required. The more that I learn, I see that a lot of the things we do are parts of a process, and we may believe it is just how things are or what reality is, but really it is just such a small piece of a greater truth. And we read or watch movies or learn what other people’s truths are, who have plumbed into the depths and come back up, dreamed into heaven and came back down, etc… but truth, and who we are, is so intimately unique that it is an exploration through the emotional reality that can communicate to anyone what their truth is. It’s something that one kind of has to do alone… but also, not alone. Because we’re all doing this, at varying levels and speeds. I have a thought that if a person would regularly seek out their emotional truth, by some kind of practice - painting, journalling, laying their head in the grass and losing themselves in the shapes and sounds… whatever it is - if we allow ourselves a descent from the surface reality, or an ascent from the surface reality, or maybe some kind of parallel, horizontal movement from the surface reality - there are innumerable gifts and consequences. There is a magic in being sensitive and a magic in having the courage to really feel things. If we can ground our emotional explorations with love and patience, we can do amazing things. We can be conduits for art and truth. We can follow our emotions to their roots instead of always pulling the weeds. Life will have it so that there are always new events, emotions and realities to process. Our emotions are never bad - they are just messengers.
Posted on: Sat, 09 Aug 2014 23:45:51 +0000
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