Well we have had better days; Renea has been diagnosed with an infection: E. coli; she is allergic to the two most common types of antibiotics, but they have found one to treat it. As I sit here watching her sleep I wonder to myself what the future holds for us; will Renea be able to see her grandchildren, will we grow old together; God blessed me when He allowed me to over-marry this fine and decent and caring women; I wonder to myself why such a fine human being is in this situation; unlike me, she has never had a drink, smoke (me either); I did make her so mad at me one time that I heard her first and last curse word (I think she was scolding me for the use of the same); did I fail as the leader of my family by not eating healthier, taking walks when we could, and so forth? What could I have done more to protect her? I realize that ultimately I cannot control nature, Gods Will, or anyones fate, but the thought haunts me. As I attempted to work today, the thought of the worst case scenario crept into my head. I imagined what it would feel like is she was no longer here. In a few short years, my kids will be grown and gone; hopefully to very successful lives and creating their own families. I am fearful of being alone. You see, I have been co-dependent since day 1; from my mothers rocking me as a child, to having a girl friend or girlfriend, to marrying the absolute love of my life, I cannot remember being alone. I am quite grateful to have so many close and dear friends, family, and Brothers in my life. I am truly thankful for our two healthy and wonderful children. I am thankful for your prayers, love, donations; all of it. It is times like these when one realizes who his friends are and who are nice acquaintances. Its awesome to see and hear from everyone, but at the end the day, you are ultimately left with your immediate family. If she is no longer here, then I will end up in a ever shrinking room once my kids have moved on. Well, I am just determined that is not a reasonable outcome. Therefore, I invoke Gods Blessing on my wife; heal her like You did my Grandma Watson years ago; watch over her like You did when I could have died on the football field October 26, 1989; grant her the Grace that she needs to get through this rough and rugged road which tonight lies out before her; allow us to grow old together honoring thy Holy name. I am prepared to fight with her until the bitter end if need be. She is strong, she is honorable, she is my wife and she is my life! #standstrongforrenea
Posted on: Sat, 23 Aug 2014 06:13:31 +0000
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