When I became a man, I put away childish things. And many times I didnt always fit the shoes of a king. I let life bring what it wanted to bring, and I had let myself be control of uncertain reality. When I became a man, I began listening to the advice that my father gave me, even though it seemed I never listened. I would remember laying on my bed at night, and breaking down, because I saw the boy that I was becoming. I saw the boy who wanted to have friends, who wanted to have all the cool toys of the world, the addictions, and the lusts. I saw the boy who wanted to stay out late, and sleep in late, and when I get up, I am not worth anything. When I became a man, I reflected on my past, and I saw all the hate and bitterness I had harbored against myself, and against others who tried raising me. When I became a man, I decided to give up the keys to the chains around my heart, and I let God unlock the chains, and He set me free. When I became a man, I looked at my past, and was THANKFUL to be where so few could be. I looked back at my life, I saw the big difference in the boys I knew, and their goals, and their desires. I knew that one day they will come looking for me, asking me to show them what they should do. I will tell them, I am only going to tell you what you HAVE TO do. And of course you already know that because you used to make fun of me for it. The jokes that you laughed at, dont worry about it. It isnt easy to leave the boys to become a man. When I became a man, I changed the way I thought, and acted. I always thought in the state of adolescence, in a way anyone could think. I acted on others actions based on my pride and my experience of how things were handled. That was the boys way. When I became a man, I decided that I would forget my pride, forget the normal way of life, and move on to the level of maturity that the world doesnt expect they boys to achieve. I learned from my father the ways of men, not so I could act and talk like them, but so I could learn to observe like them, to study like them, be become noble like them. I left the ways of the world because their are too many boys, and not enough men. I learned that the expectations and values of men are not the physical things that always need to be replaced, but that they consist of things that the boys will never reach. They consist of honor, maturity, and the attitude of defiance against foolishness. When I became a man, I gave up the life I had planned to live, I gave up the friends that I used to talk to every day, I gave up on my boy self. I said I have had enough foolishness in this world to keep me amused, and eventually I will be abused by it. I want the life of those who succeed, I want the intelligence of those who create, and I want the ability to be agile of spirit, of tongue, and of wit. I leave the boys, to become a man. Many of my old boy friends begged me to not leave them. I told them I have to make man friends now. And if they think they were ready, then please join me. But I can assure them that becoming a man means sacrifice, it means that when life bites you in the lip, that they will not break down. That when you become a man, you have to learn to laugh at the foolishness of boys, and admire the wisdom of men. When I became a man, I looked to the sky, and I threw up my hands, and said, Do your worst to me, and I will survive, blow your wind hard against me, and I will stand, send your hell on me, and will let it burn on me, only to reveal the man that I now unleash into the world. When I became a man, I became a man.
Posted on: Fri, 16 Jan 2015 03:07:23 +0000
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