Yesterday as i rode behind my dad mowing grass for a lady we are helping out i had a realization. It is no secret my father and i have not always seen eye to eye, but as i watched him re cut a spot i decided not to go back over because i was just being lazy our past flashed before my eyes.I said to my mom the other day how i had always held my fathers lack of emotion or rather the lack of showing his love for us against him and that i believe that is where my anger towards him started from. But yesterday i was shown the truth. Dad has always been the hardest worker i have ever met and to this day my work ethic pails in comparison to his. He had nothing and everything he has now he earned through the strength of his hands, the power in his back and the relentless drive to do the best job at everything he does. He worked all the time because that is all he knows to do to provide. He worked for us because he had no other option. He might not skip and jump and hug us and shower us with love, but i know with out a shadow of a doubt that he works so hard to show his love. He is honest, loyal, would do anything he can to help anybody that needs it without them even asking and without praise continues to do these things daily. The only thing my father lacks is Jesus and even now i know soon he will have that to. You see as a child i went against everything he said and did. I chose to pick the qualities of his to follow and his flaws and ignored all his good ones. Satan put a wedge between us so my anger could grow and for that until two years ago my father and I did not have a relationship. I watch him with Evie Dane and wonder where this guy came from as they have a closeness and a love for each other that sucks the air out of the room. But i realize now that my dad was teaching his sons to be Men and how to survive in this hard world by leading us by example and teaching us the only way he knew how. You see i write this to remind me that it is never to late to change the way you think and to beg any young man out there that has a grudge against there father to drop it and forgive before it is to late.( Yes i know there is extreme cases but for the majority of us we hold a grudge for stupid reasons.) To look at there father and see the good qualities, step back for a minute and truly look at the man. Fathers it is never to late to let your children know you love them or ask for forgiveness. But most of all to my dad I AM SORRY for causing so many problems in your life growing up and for being so hardheaded and judgmental, you were and are a good father it just took me a while to figure out what page of the lesson plan you were on. Yesterday dad even if you do not believe it, Jesus used you to teach me something about swallowing my pride through your simple act of kindness through your actions to save your son from a hole he was in and could not get out of. So thank you and I love you. In Psalms 90:14 it says this O satisfy us in the morning with Your loving kindness, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days. Today i sing! Yall have a blessed day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted on: Sat, 11 Oct 2014 11:02:42 +0000
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