hello friends it is with great sorrow that i make this post i have to confess a dark secret of mine...while i love everyone i meet (until they give me reason not to that is) i have no love for myself....to be honest i HATE myself and i dont know how to love myself and while many people may tell me that happiness is all up to me i have MAJOR depression which is not a choice every day i wake up and feel like a failure my dreams of acting died in the car crash i had a year ago now that my arm and spine are forever damaged ive been betrayed by both friends and family to the point where i have no faith in the bonds of my friendship with other people and im basicly waiting for the day when they too hate me or leave me like everyone else ive noticed that when i make a mistake its less forgivable than if someone else did and because of that i fear making mistakes and worst of all when i do make a mistake i beat myself up more than i should my mind is always racing chaining memories to each other powering different emotions now while this post might seem alarming i want you all to know i would never take my own life so please rest easy this post is to help my friends understand me better so hopefully one day i CAN love myself but as of now i feel like a talentless failure
Posted on: Sun, 07 Dec 2014 08:05:47 +0000
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