David, for awhile now you had this fixation about me. You want me to do something important with my life! You think I should become guru, teacher or continue writing my books so that maybe one day I can become world known famous writer! If I dont do any of these things then you think Im wasting my life or talents! I wonder why do you feel this way. Why cant you accept me being nobody? I told you many times that I have no desire to become anything. All becomings belongs to ego. All becomings belongs to future. For me thats what wasting life is. While you are trying to become something you are losing the most precious now! I do not want to become anything other than what I am in each new moment. I do not want to make any plans about even ten minutes from now. All becomings needs planing and I cannot think of anything more clostrophobic! I love my freedom. I love allowing life as it happens. So what if nothing happens? So what if I spend my whole life looking at a tree and not move an inch from where I am? Few weeks ago I suddenly felt like I should become a politician! I thought; this world became the way it is because good hearted, incorruptible, just, compassionate people dont get involved in politics. We leave the scene to those greedy murderers and watch them destroy our beautiful world. So, I called and made an appointment to go and see where to start what to do. I cant tell you how horrible that made me feel! I felt like I was chained by my neck in the most terrible dungeon! Few hours later I called and canceled my appointment. What a relief! I cannot belong with any group. I cannot live a life with rules and regulations. No promises, no obligations. The door has to be open at all times. I do whatever I feel like. I go wherever life takes me. If life wants me to stay in my room for the rest of my life without doing anything thats ok, I have a beautiful room...
Posted on: Sun, 28 Sep 2014 19:56:47 +0000
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