Ok everyone... Not going to hold it in.. Not bottling it up. Family and friends. Ok I have to do this. Cant take it any longer. Also this is not against anyone or to slander anyone. Its what I have went thru what I thought my fairly tail life was. I am sending what I have inside me. Here goes. First time I meant my husband at owl wire and cable. I played hard to get. Try to do this as short as I can. But I feel hard mad in love with him. Quote words when I got issues when I got sick there and was in and out of hospital when he proposed I had ask him I didnt not want to end up like most of my family in divorce.... The quoted word out of both of our mouths cause he said it too. So I take that seriously and always have. Another I thought he was like my father hard working man that wanted what I was brought up with morals of a family and have nice things. As life went by we struggled my mom took my youngest for about a month or two due to money problems. But I never seen it coming though he got sick I got nervous, ya I thought I was loosing him. I took over the snow plowing while he was in the hospital. But never thought it came to he come home a different person with problems. So it was like my life was spinning in circles. Then it get worse when we had our second though I was not totally aware but had some gut feelings and why where we in debt and I started working. Oh it just became out of control. Bit I found evidence notes and it went south. No I set back and though I was pissed. Why I did not ask for this. The innocent kids didnt ask for this. Really I feel he was trying to shorten his life in front of me and the children. Thats what I was thinking. So I went in to a wife mom mode. Trying to save him. I realize I did it in the wrong way back years ago. Cps didnt help or listen. So I went into ignoring it got myself sick and also worked so hard to where I lost weight I was stressed out. No one to help my marriage or listen took meeee. So to try to prove to also I also starved myself for little bit for someone to help my marriage that didnt help and then I got sick and lost the weight on top of that. So theres the big bang. The last yr here all I was doing is working 15 to 20 hour days to get a home for the family. But I get accused of shit and came down with phenomena in October. So thats my life story parts of a quick one.
Posted on: Fri, 29 Nov 2013 05:03:33 +0000
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