****SOLITUDE LONELINESS PAIN**** I have been alone foe almost 26 years now and I have tried many times to trust and hope I would somehow be found by that special someone I reserve my heart for and it is always the same old story, In the beginning all seems to be just right and then it goes down hill and ends. I do not have any self pity I am just giving my observations as I live all this I am laying out for the readers. The pain sometimes gets overwhelming I have chose to have zero friends as well because of being betrayed so many times so I dont even have another person to talk to about what I am or may be going through. My social life consists of reading writing and my Doggies and the stinkin computer. The lack of intellectual stimulus is terrible and mounting pain comes from this to a point I am noticing it even causes or adds to physical pain. There is a great falling away from the temple of the spirit and love for one another in this world in general. The family foundations are crumbling, brother turning against brother, Son against mother and Father and so on. When I meet someone and get a really strong vibe of goodness and agree to just be there friend no further than on line? you would think this is much easier than in closeness of physical togetherness but that is not true at all. Every time I give trust it is ripped apart. All I do is give them just one job. I trust them with my heart and it is to a point no one is even capable of doing that any more not even from a distance. What the hell is happening to this world? We are certainly doomed as a species if this is the progression we have to look forward to. I am happy that some find their happiness because that is as close to being happy most all of us have to look forward to any more.I know I am doomed to loneliness for life I am become sad.****TEARS****because I am human. TwoDogs
Posted on: Thu, 19 Jun 2014 21:54:47 +0000
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