VULNERABLE POST ALERT!! Everything will be ok 6 years ago today was one of my darkest days. And not just because it was raining. I remember I thought I was having a wonderful day, had gotten a new hair cut/color, and it was the last day of my crappy JOB. Then my JOB turned on me as soon as I came in that day and decided to throw every legal term at me and threaten to sue me (trust me its a long story). Being 19 years old and living in another state than my family, I went home from being then fired and was completely alone in a dark depressing studio apartment. I was in a terrible relationship with a man and wanted him to come to my rescue, but he did not. But he did tell me one thing, Everything will be ok. I contemplated taking my life that afternoon sitting alone on the floor. I felt like I had nothing going for me, that anything I did ended up wrong in one way or another. I could never escape the clutches of some one out to get me! I would never be happy. Thankfully a friend reached out to me that day and I forced myself to go be with her so I wouldnt be alone. Everything will be ok. It took me a long time to pull myself out of the darkness. Everyday I was presented with choices, and I didnt always choose right, but it was the start of me learning to fend for myself and to start growing, REALLY growing. I had to find ways to fight for myself. I stopped letting myself be the victim. Everything will be ok. It took years for me to figure out my life, to finally create the life I always imagined, to make the choices that would give me the results I desired. NOW I am the happiest I have ever been, I am so incredibly blessed as I am reminded each day. I have worked very hard to pull myself off the floor, to stand up, to be ME! No one is going to get in the way of my happiness. I am in charge of MY LIFE. Whenever I am having a rough time, I remind myself, Everything will be ok. Reminds me how far I have come, how much I have grown, and the wonderful life I am continuing to work to have every day. If you are struggling with depression, or feel thoughts of loneliness, heck we all have crappy days! Remember this, Everything WILL be ok in the end, if its not ok, then its not the end! If you need help, ASK for it. You are not alone. And if you see someone struggling, please reach out to them, you have no idea who you could be helping off the floor.
Posted on: Sat, 04 Oct 2014 01:46:04 +0000
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