As I look back on my life and think on my past, questions start to flood my mind and I wonder about all of the things that I thought should have hapened and then I find my self start to ask why. Everyone that knows me well, knows that I love children and that my drean was to have my happily ever after and have a house full of childrens laughter. I thought that my life was perfect and that things wer gna go just the way I had always planned but wow, does life ever throw curve balls!! I look back and think of how I thought I was gna lose my mind and that my life was over when the Dr. called me into his office and said "I am very sorry to have to give u this news but you will never be able to have a child of your own". When the Dr gave me that news I literally thought that my life had ended and all of my hopes and dreams were shattered. I also look back at the time in my life when my marriage started to crumble and at that point I wondered how in this world I could possibly carry nymor on my shoulders. There were many times that I questioned my purpose in life and was it even worth living, I was at the lowest that I could possibly be by this point. If it would not have been for my family and God I would have never made it through. I have had many other very big hurtles to overcome but I have always had the strength to pull thru, thanks to family, great friends and God! The main thing that I would like to say is...... 2 years ago on 4/1/11, a little blond headed, blue eyed girl was born and I saw a little glimmer of sunshine thru my little window of hope, her name is Rylen Brooke Touchton and I realized at that point that everything in life may have not worked out the way I wanted it to but my hopes and dreams were not shattered, they were just put on hold. 2 years later on 4/1/13 a little brown haired, blue eyed boy named Owen James Touchton was born and the sun started shining a little brighter thru my little window!! I have now realized that I have everything I could ever ask for. I know that my past is in the past and I have to live for the future, I may not get to come home to childrens laughter everyday but then I realize my hopes and dreams r in there laughter and I am forever grateful. There r times when I have bad days and I think about never holding a child of my own but when I look at my niece and nephews smiling faces and I hear her say "aunt ber we r best friends forever", My world lights up!!!!! I thank God for them every day, Aunt Ber loves u VERY MUCH rylen and owen and u will always have my heart. Andrea Touchton
Posted on: Mon, 09 Sep 2013 03:19:29 +0000
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