I wish people could see hurt and pain and wounding in others like I can and then come from a place of compassion in their actions and communications. Caring for 9 acres is A lot to care for and be resoonsible for/ I usually enjoy it. I have no bank accts with cash, or 401Ks or retirements. I have this farm and the responsibilities that come with this. I care for her, she gives back, a home, food, shelter, space, refuge, beauty. Its a great full circle trade I do with Gaia. I wish humans could undetstand this full circle. As a Trained Medicine Person its so obvious. Its been painful since i moved here to Puna, where as a Medicine Person I no longer can do what I am trained and destined to do-as so many people do not want to exchange full circle. They believe you should give without exchange. And if you ask? You are almost shamed for it. How is the medicine person supposed to thrive? in Seattle I was paid and given very thoughtful giveaways for me and my home or practice in forms of coffee, sage, food/buffalo/cooked meals, medicine pieces. I think I have almost given up. But cant. Some may see this post and think I am wrong for my feelings of hurt. Of not being seem for the gifts that I have freely gived. It gets hard. And I fight with the feelings of not wanting to give anymore because I am not seen for what I already do. Between this and The Cassandra complex-look it up if you dont know. I just want to go to my Bear Cave.
Posted on: Sun, 30 Nov 2014 00:17:33 +0000