Relationships are murdered the fast way- by betrayal and treachery. The surest way to destroy any relationship, including relationships which have always been good, is to destroy the trust. I don’t usually have many requirements for my relationships, but loyalty is number one. I give unswerving loyalty to my friends/family, and that’s what I expect in return. Call me crazy, but once someone I loved and trusted stabs me in the back, the honeymoon is pretty much over. Treachery hurts in a deep and profound way because I always thought I could relax and be myself around my family. I thought I could share anything and everything with them. I never realized I had to be on guard around certain relatives, and now that I do realize it, I may find myself preferring to avoid them rather than have to censor my interactions with them and the information I allow them to have. My family members has seen me when I was vulnerable, at my lowest or weakest moments, and I was always okay with that because I assumed they loved and supported me. I thought my secrets and my innermost thoughts were safe with them. I thought I could TRUST them. But now I know differently, and suddenly it becomes dangerous to appear weak or vulnerable in front of anyone. I can no longer share my hearts with anyone. It is risky to let anyone know what I am really thinking or feeling. I know I can no longer relax and be myself in anyone presence. For the first time in my life, Ive actually realized that I have to be CAREFUL around certain people, and can no longer be completely open and honest. This puts a serious crimp in any relationship. In this way, their betrayal and dishonesty in misleading me into believing they were someone they werent , now forces me into a position of being dishonest with them as well- about my feelings, my life , or anything else I need to keep from them in order to protect myself.
Posted on: Thu, 11 Sep 2014 00:50:36 +0000
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