There are so many things I’m not good at...and apparently I have an inner monologue determined to record each and every one of them. There’s a voice in my head that tells me I am not enough…it tells me that I am nothing…insignificant…Some days it’s quiet and other days it’s incredibly loud. It’s the strangest thing to discover the back of your brain muttering mean things to yourself. The voice is so ordinary, so routine that I rarely stop to think about it. I just let the words run through my veins until they seem like a normal part of my DNA. I hear that voice more often that I care to admit. I heard it today while driving… alone. Maybe that’s why I listened without just letting it wash over me. I listened and almost couldnt believe what I heard. I was surprised, actually…kind of amazed that I was capable of such meanness to myself. Because the thing about that voice is it’s a harsh one. It delights in destroying the DNA of a day, a dream, a moment. But, today, when I tuned in, the noise/voice sounded more and more like static…fuzzy,harsh, unforgiving and small. It’s the kind of noise that tries to drown out the truth God says about me…the noise that crackles and tries to poke fun at who I am…who I want to be…who I hope to be. I actually spoke out loud to the static noise/voice today…I spoke the words that have been spoken over me by THE Voice who speaks the only words that matter…with all the rich, resonant tones of Truth so filled with love for me (unlike the static noise)… a Sound/Voice that is more like singing. Not hissing or criticizing or comparing or mocking. I began reminding myself of my significance because of Him. Because He is enough I am chosen, cherished and beloved. I am not nothing. I am a child of the ONE who created me....I am loved. The Truth is that the words we say to ourselves matter because God who is The Word says we matter. Ive always struggled to believe that God loves me with the fullness and depth and beauty that He says He does. So,for the days when the static is louder than the truth…when I need to remind myself of my worth…I have a “Love List” to remind me that I am loved beyond all comprehension. He delights in me and rejoices over me with singing. Zephaniah 3:17 He has engraved me on the palm of His hand. Isaiah 49:16 He carries me close to His heart. Isaiah 40:11 He holds my hand. Psalm 73:23 He will do abundantly more than all I can ask or imagine. Ephesians 3:20 He daily bears my burdens. Psalm 68:19 He thinks of me constantly: His thoughts of me outnumber the grains of sand on the sea. Psalm 139:17–18 He is intimately interested in my life. He even knows how many hairs are on my head. Matthew 10:30 He has planned out my days. Psalm 139:16; 118:24 He prays for me. Hebrews 7:25; Romans 8:26 He freely forgives me. 1 John 1:9; Psalm 103:12 He protects and rescues me. Psalm 91 He understands my disappointments, sorrows, and weaknesses. Hebrews 2:17–18 He teaches me what is best for me. Isaiah 48:17 He helps me. Isaiah 41:10, 14; Psalm 118:13; Deuteronomy 33:26 He created me for a special purpose and designed me to be His wonderful creation. Psalm 139:13–14;Jeremiah 1:5; Ephesians 2:10 He will fulfill His purpose for me. Psalm 138:8; Philippians 1:6 His love for me is as high as the heavens are above the earth. Psalm 103:11 He makes my path level and smooth. Isaiah 26:7 He is always with me. Psalm 73:23 He guides me with His counsel. Psalm 73:24 He gives me wisdom. James 1:5 He satisfies my hunger and quenches my thirst. John 6:35 He holds me in His hand. John 10:27 He gives me life to the fullest. John 10:10 He laid down His life for me. John 10:11 He gives me good and perfect gifts. James 1:17 He listens to me; He hears my cry. Psalm 145:19 He keeps record of all my tears. Psalm 56:8 He fulfills my desires. Psalm 145:19; 37:4 He has compassion on me. Psalm 145:9 He cures me of backsliding. Jeremiah 4:22 He makes me happy. Psalm 16:11; 36:8 He has made me His child. Romans 8:14; Galatians 4:5; 3:26 He has given me a home in heaven. Colossians 1:13;Ephesians 2:6 He has lavished on me all the riches of His grace. Ephesians 1:8 He longs to give me His very best. Isaiah 1:19 He is distressed in my distress. Isaiah 63:9 He lifts me up and carries me. Isaiah 63:14 He leads me through the depths and the darkness. Isaiah 50:10 He directs my steps. Proverbs 20:24 He chooses to forget my sins; He buries them in the deep sea. Isaiah 43:25, Micah 7:19 He has given me an inheritance far beyond my imagination. Psalm 47:4; Ephesians 1:18, Colossians 1:12 He provides me with the strength…. 1 Peter 4:11 The other great part and beauty about this is that it applies to everyone. We have the gift of free will to believe it or not...my mind, heart, and life are better because I choose to believe it. Even if I have to remind myself often.
Posted on: Tue, 06 Jan 2015 17:43:27 +0000
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