To everyone on my page that has seen my posts in the last 24 hours, I apologize if theyre depressing or shocking to you. Im sorry for whatever emotion they may have cause, especially if you dont agree with them. I needed to get some things off my chest and out of my head. I truly has been 10 years of military service for me and Ive seen and done things no living human being should have to deal with. My fellow service members most definitely can relate. What some may not realize is that all that stuff builds up, causes issues that may or may not be recognized and dealt with. For me, I dont know why, I have a tendency to just bottle everything up, put it away and try to not worry about it. I try to remain positive, happy, uplifting, encouraging and most importantly friendly. However, after a while, it gets to be to much and even I have to just let it out. Got in my car last night after all of that and damn near broke down to tears, but I didnt. I went home, had my late ass dinner, relaxed on the couch and passed out till this morning. Everythings still fresh in my head and none of it has gone away, but hey, Im only human. I can only be so strong till I have to take a knee, face out and collect myself. Drink water, and drive on. Life doesnt end when you have a break down unless you let it. I have to be myself for everyone else. I have to continue to be smiley, upbeat and uplifting. I have to. To many people depend on me day in and day out.
Posted on: Thu, 22 Jan 2015 23:01:15 +0000