Tonight as I think about my last 3 months I could go to bed, cry my heart out never get up again. One of my favorite movies is pretty woman. I guess most of us dream of Prince Charming rescuing us. When Richard Gere climbs up to Julia Roberts bedroom he asked her what happens after Prince Charming rescues her she says I rescue him right back. I guess thats what we do. We play the role, everyday of a marriage cant always be perfect but those days when he is down you try to lift him up and when you are having a bad day he is there to rescue you. With real love most everyday is not going to be bad for both of you. God blesses us with the patience to keep on trying. These last 3 months I have endured the pain of not having anyone to lean on. But learned from my Mother as I watched her without anyone to help her. We can be as strong as we have to be. As my niece Kathy was going through the same pain of losing her husband, then the pain of seeing Elizabeth completely paralyzed, the Drs telling us she will never be any better. Her not being able to speak, knowing she is hungry her mouth is dry from thirst and all she can do to communicate with us is blink her eyes. Mother always said there are things in this life that are worse than death now we are seeing it with our heart. And after 3 life changing events we lose Rodney, Another heart ache we will never understand. I have worked at not being still. I have worked at ALFA, I have baked cakes, decorated for weddings and went to UAB every weekend to see Elizabeth. Today I had my grandchildren that are a great source of joy. Pazie Baby told me all day you are my best friend. Tonight I am still, thinking about the gifts God has blessed me with. Even though my heart hurts I know I have had something many people are still looking for. The joy that comes from knowing that everyday of Garys life I told him I loved him, I never hung up the phone with Elizabeth Jeffreys that I didnt say I love you, and I miss her phone calls so bad. And with Rodney Parker I always reminded him he was always my baby and I loved him forever. I thank God tonight for my Mother who taught me how to be strong and love. She would say just know that we are not promised another day, so live everyday like it were you that was dying.
Posted on: Sun, 23 Mar 2014 03:59:18 +0000
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