I read posts everyday about children and parents dealing with cancer. Like everyone with kids, the first thing I visualize is my own kid when I read these posts. I know folks say all the time that we families that have been struck with this hardship inspire them to do and be better. I guess I would be thankful too if the roles were reversed. My kid entered a world of darkness the day after my birthday, December 6th. I cant explain the anger I feel sometimes when I think about her never being able to see again. There has been this hope in our minds that this new chemo that she just got finished with would shrink the tumor off her optic nerve and allow her to see again. That plan doesnt seem to be working out. Can you imagine waking up in the morning and not being able to see? I hate it. We wake up every day and deal with the day the best we can. Payton likes listening to the TV. Family Feud, Friends, George Lopez, and iCarly seem to be our daily dose of TV. Whatever makes her happy works for me. We leave for Memphis again on Sunday. There will be blood, scans, and hopefully(praying to GOD) good news about the tumor. Our hope is the tumor hasnt grown and we can get some new type of treatment. I ask myself all the time, how much more can we take? I guess the answer is -- as much as we have to. Anyway, other than the depression, blindness, chronic pain, and weakness, I guess were doing okay. As good as we can be anyway. Some of you are asking, what can I do? Payton enjoys talking to her friends. I think she feels like they have forgotten about her sometimes. Just a few minutes on the phone could be enough to break up the monotony of her day. I dont know. Anyway, keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we travel this Sunday. Ill update when I know more about the scans. Till next time...
Posted on: Fri, 28 Feb 2014 09:23:17 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015